Posts Tagged ‘self acceptance

23
Jul
13

how’s your love life?

she-loved-life-I know, you must read on because you are not sure if I am really going to blog about my love life, but I gotta tell you, it’s amazing. In fact, I have never had a more energized, actualized, romanticized, conceptualized love affair with my life than at this very moment.

I hit a milestone this past week and I am so darn excited I could leap out of my skin….and I was already pretty loose in it already! I hit the half-century mark! And the reason I am so happy is that I now finally feel ready to conduct my next 50 year journey around the solar system knowing exactly how I want it done!

I am well aware of the many horrible mistakes I made, the pain I caused, and the idiotic things I did in my first 50 years. I am no longer interested in looking back at them. I have worked under the disapproval of various bosses who didn’t value me for the first 50 years. I am no longer constrained by what someone thinks of my skill set. I know what I offer; I won’t tolerate not being fully utilized and I won’t compromise my principles.

I am single; have been for a long time. There were many times during my first 50 years when I had someone in my life but never felt more alone or hurt. When I page through family albums, looking back over the past decades, very few, if any, of the people in the pictures are still in my life, yet I feel happier and more love in my heart today than at any other time.

Lastly, but most importantly, I am at peace with my priorities and finally have the confidence to enforce any and all boundaries that were so sorely missing during my first 50 years. The older I get the less I care what people think about me, hence the more I enjoy life! I can finally tell it like it is, in love, and never have a second thought about it! And isn’t that what we longed for during our younger, more insecure years?

So how’s your love life? Is it exhilarating?? Mind numbing??  Full of living out your most ardent passions? If not, it sure can be.  I am a liver and a lover of life! I finally cleaned out all of the toxins in my world and am free to move about the universe.  Each and every one of us can do this. It’s not up to any person or job to come and fill some self-imposed void. It’s completely up to you!

 

20
Jun
12

into each life some Rain must fall

One of life’s greatest miracles is when a curse turns into a blessing, when failure leads to triumph, and when we realize that the rain falling on our heads provides the precious life force to push us up to grow.

It all started on a very rainy and surprisingly cold June morning. While driving to work I saw through the windshield wipers something shivering off to the side of the road. It lifted its little white-and-gray head off the white line and looked feebly at me.

I can handle most of life’s tragedies without batting an eye. But when I see an animal in distress my heart rate rips into overdrive and I start to hyperventilate. I quickly turned the car around to see if I had seen what I thought I saw. After confirming a little kitten was indeed lying injured in the road, I made one last U-turn to evaluate where to stop the car, and quickly punched on the hazards.

The rain was really coming down so I said a quick prayer for safety, and a quick thanks for my procrastination in dropping off a winter coat, which had been in my trunk for months, to a shelter and ran to scoop up the injured animal. All I could see was that it looked like a shivering drenched rat and that its back legs had been hit, bitten, run over, or all of the above.

I drove to the nearest animal hospital with the bundle in my arms, praying that it would remain alive. The vet immediately admitted the little kitten and went to work. Later that day I found out it was a girl, between five and six weeks old, brought her home, and called her Rain.

Our first week started off rough; there were plenty of hisses and growls that first night. She was in pain and scared. One week later she is warm, healing and playful. She purrs incessantly and even gives me tiny kisses. She gets her paws all tangled up in my hair while she gazes up at me.

I think Rain will never regain full use of her one leg. But she is able to play, use the litter box, and get around to some extent. One of my Facebook friends said that it was good she didn’t have full use of her legs because otherwise she would have run away and probably died at a young age trying to survive the hazards of living outside.

Whenever I think of someone or some animal that is crippled I think of the story of Mephibosheth in the book of 2 Samuel. Injured as a child, his shameful disability later brought him into the care of King David where he found favor and love.

Rain has become a part of my royal family. What are we holding on to as a perceived or manifested “disability” that makes us feel less than worthy of living as royalty? Love is the greatest force in the universe and if we acknowledge our worthiness and willingly accept it, the rain that comes our way can cleanse us from our painful and dirty past.

 




Tremendous Tracey


CEO Tremendous Life Books. Book Evangelist

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